pelikness

up to this day I still wonder on the fact that I am actively blogging. Expressing myself while others read my piece if mind is never my cup of tea. I never kept diaries because they're just a piece of junk, so i dont wanna write my thoughts in junk item. Play war games instead if you're angry, eat chocolates when depressed and sleep when stress strikes.

ironically i've been posting lots of stuff since i learned abt this site.


mamak, teh tarik satu!

Part 1: Philosophy of Science

Observation is one of the common method used by scientists to come up with a theory. Further studies may strengthen or produce a new theory. When that theory is no longer arguable by any studies, a law confirms it.

Thoughts......redefined

I have seen many contrary images flashing in front of my eyes. Many of these images are an eye opener for me. Little did I knew human behaves in many unique way and up till today, human behavior is a curiosity to me. I once took for granted what people believe and understand, assuming that I know the same attitude I see every single day applies everywhere. Let me narrow down my scope on Malaysia, as I had my most observations in my beloved homeland, and still observing. Malaysia is a country with diverse culture and heritage, which makes it an even more unique country than anywhere else in the world. I was lucky enough to be in a different environment at the age where teenagers are almost legal to do banned things while they were underage. While many of them learned to party and start clubbing, I learned how to appreciate a different world, understanding in depth of our cultures. I believe staying put where one begins his first step will not take him to the 1000th step. This is due to the fact that they are secluded in their own beds and pillows, and never push themselves beyond the the doors of their house. So what they'll see is whatever is on their lawn. Never to be bothered on what is happening on the other side of the green. I have been on the other side of the fence, and undeniably some of the grasses are greener, though some are experiencing drought.

The drought was a heat wave that shocked me. That is of course the law of nature, to which we must obey. I now understand how religious values are incorporated in our formal and informal daily issues, not that I've never had any knowledge of it before, but the beauty of knowledge is that it keeps expanding. I have never regretted walking through the greener grass nor the drying field, because both have bear me fruits and experiences, for which they will never rot in my mind but beautifully engraved in my soul.

So what are these subjects that have taught me lessons from the new book of life? Who still preserve the opulence of our cultures? Indeed, the people and the surrounding. The former taught me to see life in different perspectives, brought new light and uncover my truest potential. The latter carved a pathway and adequate ornaments that beautify the route. Thus, my journey was enlighten by the light of the former to help me move forward in the darkened pathway. The light, which signifies my family and friends, gave all the courage to me and them to grow stronger on every step we take.

I have made many friends throughout my journey, and you are one of my priceless friend. But words seem inadequate to describe how meaningful you are to have such a presence in my life. Flowers will not blossom and the world would never been a better place without guidance from the past, present and future.

an ode to my love

my love for family is eternal,
my love for relatives are infinity,
and my love for friends are forever

we do not live alone.....

....because we share this beautiful planet with everyone.There are times in our life that we can't afford to satisfy everyone's feelings. As all normal human would do is to try their best to bring happiness to everyone he knows. However, there are times we may slip...not on purpose. That would send an immediate rush on one's feeling of guilt and unhappiness.

This is life unfold.

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ahlan ya Ramadhan Kareem

The day i wrote this is on the first day of Ramadhan. The holy month of Islam came early this year and I'm very blessed that I could perform the fasting this year again in my 22 years as His servant.
Throughout this holy month, the doors of hell are closed as tightly as possible, grave questioning are ceased, living the souls of the dead in temporary peace and devils are locked up in the deepest ocean.

It is at this very month too, that the Holy Quran was sent down to earth as guidance for the people of Muhammad. May all of us be blessed in this beautiful month of Islam.

the power of chili padi

I had a burning sensation on both of my hands. I thought it was due to the splash of hot oil while I was cooking, but it lasted for hours, from noon till night. I figured out it was the extra hot chili padi seeds which accidentally landed on my hand. The feeling is as if a high concentrated acid spilled on your skin and slowly burning and ripping off your skin and exposing the flesh and eventually the bones. The pain was excruciating due to the long hours it lasted.

Tale of the Golden Gate

The tranquility of Vanda Lawn is undeniable, with baby blue sky and cotton white clouds strolling elegantly mesmerizing the very thankful human of God's great creation. The lush greenery view of undisturbed virgin forest which forms the blanket of a nearby hill would easily take one's breath away. Nature is always at its best here, and one will always feel at home though in far land.

At sunset, a pigeon appeared on a vast golden gate facing the well-crafted mountain. It stood there for about an hour, oblivious to the others for it's purpose of landing its wing on a familiar gate. Another hour passed by, and the sunset is beginning to take form of a picturesque view. By nature's law, birds would have been chirping making their way to their nests as dusk arrives, marking the end of another episode of life. The pigeon, staring at the blank sky around it searching for the other pigeons as it accidentally separated from the group due to a small tornado. Alas, chirps of pigeon shall only remain as a mere beautiful imaginary sound.

A flock of dove was flying harmoniously in the dark purple sky, making their way to the pigeon, like sending a delightful message from Hedwig the owl. A crescent shape dominant illuminated the dark sky, enlightened by sparkles of stars glittering the breezy evening space. The pigeon spread its wing, as though understanding the different language spoken by the doves and ready to take off at any time when the doves fly over it. And so the pigeon joined the doves.

Though they are of different species, but due to the same origin they shared together as Columbiformes, they learn to accept each other's behavior and that was not a problem at all for the pigeon to fit among the doves.

this is life

sometimes in life we have to go through a moment that make us feel guilty for not doing it. Even if it means people do not ever expect me to fulfill that obligation.

the task is simple, yet everybody depends on us to do the job.
that maybe because we have devoted ourselves for doing it.
and people have gained trust on us.
but pity us, who's human by nature cannot run from fatigue and other responsibilities.

I could give a thousand and one reasons why we should take a rest for now and let others have mercy on us.

this is a slice of life we must endure for being born into this world. But God works in miraculous ways, that is one reason why human is His most extraordinary exceptional creation.

bed & pillows

i can get sleepy so easily.
where else would you find real comfort in this world
if it's not on your own bed and pillows
with a blanket that keeps you warm and cozy

General Hospital

this is so far the dream that I could remember almost everything.

I was at a hospital, a very big hospital, with the influence of early 80's architecture inside-out. The interior was more like the KL General Hospital but with more floors. The hospital has 2 wings, one perpendicular to the other. Outside at the hallway I was standing and talking to some people, and then I was called into a ward and entered one of the rooms. There were four beds inside, but only one was occupied. The room was sealed once I entered. Around the occupied bed stood 3-4 nurses and few doctors, preparing something which was more like preparatory actions normally performed in an operation theater before surgery. On the bed there was a patient, still fully conscious with all the necessary sterilized surgical equipments being pushed near to him.

The room was quite dim, lit only by a round light hanging above the patient. A moment later, a doctor cuts open something (i couldn't remember what) and started to perform his surgical work. Then suddenly came my turn. Immediately I reached for an enormous syringe and filled it with a bright red liquid. At that time I knew this was not right because I was not trained to become a doctor, but a chemist instead. So since that I'm very confident in working with chemicals, unknowingly I injected the liquid "chemical" into his abdomen. And then the doctor continued to finish the operation. Once finished, the patient amazingly recovered very fast and started walking towards the door and left the "operation theater". The doctors and nurses were ecstatic and they, too, left the room. One nurse before she left, asked me "what did u injected into his body?". I was stunned by her question. " I don't....know". I just realized that I did not even know what I had injected into that patient's body, but it sure has given him fast recovery! My mind was scanning through all list of chemical names which has a bright red colour, but failed to name any. I tried to recall the name of that bottle which contains the chemical I used to inject the patient, just to realize that the bottle did not have any label.

And then there was silence. The last nurse left the room and I was alone inside. So I packed my things to catch up with them outside, but when I stepped outside I found myself in an unfamiliar place, but still in the hospital's building, same floor, I could tell. But I couldn't find the same hallway I was at just now. Realizing that the hospital has 2 wings, I tried to find my way to the other wing where I should've come out. I knew I was at the other wing.
I went through series of doors, labs, lobbies, consultant rooms, toilets, but found no way out.
I kept walking, until I reached a hallway with many small rooms. A force suddenly pulled me into one of the rooms, and made me stuck on the wall. when I looked inside, there was a girl with a black, long hair sitting alone in a room facing the outside window. Her doctor came by and looked at me, "She's suffering from psychological problems", then he entered the room and sat with the girl.

I walked my way back to the "operation theater" again. The room was still empty and dim. Once inside, I found out that there were actually 2 doors. The one on the right will lead to the hallway I was standing before the operation and the other opens to a maze I just got lost in. Relieved, I rushed to the door on the right and....I couldn't remember what happened after that. I think I got lost again or I've found a familiar hallway, but I still couldn't find the nurses, doctors and the patient.

suddenliness

thx YM, u made me write now! hahaha!!!

PPSMI to PPSMBM

Some groups may appreciate this government's decision but some groups may be dissapointed. Well, I belong to the latter. Though I've gone through the years of schooling whereby the subjects were taught in BM, but I was happy enough to hear a govt effort to transform the learning curriculum of science and maths in schools. I was delighted because when the government implemented PPSMI, I was already in college, where I had, for the first time of my learning experience, learned science and mathematics in English, formally. Indeed, it was undeniably exciting and an eye opener. Though the teachers in my school used to teach Chemistry and Add Maths in English even though the syllabus was in Malay, it provided me a level of comfort while learning these subjects in advanced stage. And since everything was taught in English in college, I explored many new things in Science which brought me to another level of knowledge, not just it was much much more easier to understand and grasp, but it provided us a platform to speak in the same level of knowledge as the geniuses of the world is speaking.

While some may say how the Germans, Japanese, French excelled in their field of R&D by using their own mother tongue, the fact is that their journals are all written in English. I did many literature reviews myself while I was doing my thesis, Haratake and Oyaizu from Japan made their journals readable by publishing it in a language which the world could understand. Zhao et al. from China also wrote a journal in English, AbouEl-Eneih et al. from the Middle East also published a journal in English. Of course there are also journals written in other languages, but this requires a translation effort. Someone might already have found the cure to cancer perhaps once you finished translating an entire journal and by the time you are about to start a research, a cure for swine flu emerges.

What is lacking here is actually the effort from the students and teachers themselves to learn the language and let them being confined in a world where making a change is impossible since they are comfortable at a place they are now. This is a fact, and I've experienced seeing it. The world may laugh at you for having a lousy and miserable start, but the success is even sweeter when one has gone through dejected moments in his life. And this of course, doesn't come in a blink of an eye.

the comeback

It has been a while since I last wrote in this blog. And I feel quite weird as well since I do not really enjoy blogging because I do not find the passion and need to write whatever is in my mind. But then it looks like the scenario might change slowly as I may find myself enjoying writing in the virtual world whereby people around the globe will read whatever you write about. Alright enough of that, I'd like to share my experience on the last few weeks before I graduated as a degree holder. I never thought that the ending was so painful and bitter that you don't want to turn back the time to get stuck in the period of nightmare. For the first time in my life I had pushed myself to the limit; continuous days of sleepless nights and voiceless period, thesis that needs final corrections, a strategic business management report to be submitted plus the revisions for the upcoming exams. It was all due to the same day of dateline that was compulsory to meet, or face a series of catastrophic consequences. Finishing the strategic management report was the most daunting episode throughout my entire study in university. While we had to learn business management as our minor since first year, I thought it would be easy enough since it may not be equally hard as the major course I was taking; pure chemistry. Well, my perception was almost right until the very last semester, which I had to use all my knowledge from marketing to economics & finance to human resource management that I had learned since day 1 in university to complete a report of a Malaysian public listed company. Probably this may be a piece of cake for BBA students, but this could have been a minor thesis for me in the field of management. A report that covers almost everything from their business operations, restructuring, major developments and profits. To add burden to my work, I even had to make a comparison with several other successful companies to provide benchmark informations between them.

But editing for the final corrections in my real thesis was not such a big problem. It was more like a therapy for me doing what I'm more familiar with.
However, with help from God, I was able to finish every single tasks on time. Which I thought happened in the most miraculous way I'd never think could happen.
It's getting late here I gotta hit the sack.

of chemistry and financial management

Probably I should've considered taking double degree in Chemistry and Business Management. I'm a chemist-turned-economist/strategists (watever they call it) since i have to do assignments on Walt Disney Company. Well, it's pretty much fine to me to just identify the strategies and proposing new ones where I think appropriate.But things has gone really far from what I've expected in the Strategic Management course. I have to revisit human resources, operations management, marketing, economic and the worse parrt of all FINANCIAL MANAGEMENT!!! i exxtreeemely dislike doing financial management.
Being stressful handling other aspects of management, analysing and interpreting and coming with financial ratios from the balance sheet and income statement is really really pushing me to the limit. For some this is just an easy-peezy-lemon-squeezy stuff that they do in their daily life...hoho, but not for me...
We were asked to add on financial ratios for the Walt Disney Company, and i must tell you, reading the income statement and balance sheet really makes my mind oversaturated with $,millions,numerical values and I'll easily get the formula mixed.there are so many terms which i am not familiar with...
Let me give you an analogy, try someone asking you to derive the Nernst equation to calculate the electrochemical cell potential-without any prior and proper teaching...only the successful ones would make it. so thats basically the situation i'm having now-in terms of interpreting the income statement and balance sheet.


anybody knows the recrystallization method for Copper (II) Benzohydroxamic acid?i need to know how?!